mood: tired-ish
listening to: "All That We Needed" - Plain White T's
Reading: same as a few hours ago. i don't read that fast

okay for those of you i have abandoned for 10 months, i will give you the abridged and paraphrased version of what you missed hearing about.

senior year so i had to apply for college during october and november. i applied for cal state long beach, cal state fullerton, univeristy of ca, los angeles, and university of ca, san diego. i got accepted into everything but ucla (bastards) and i accepted ucsd's offer and will be starting in the fall as a theater major. i'm hoping i can double major and major in psychology too or possibly social work.

christmas i spent in south africa again. maphimiti remembered me (: and i have an excellent essay that i may post on here about how incredible my experience of going back was. i also fell in love with new children this time: prince who has hearing problems and was not there on my first trip, moima who i bonded with this time, nkosi who is the most flexible baby in the world and joseph who may very well be the most beautiful baby i have ever seen in my entire life (side note: joseph got adopted and left for his new family at the beginning of may).

i was in my teen players acting ensemble this year and i got to perform a scene from no exit with my friend courtney. then we just literally finished our final show of club/underworld, a modern retelling of the orpheus and eurydice myth, which i was felicty/fury 2 in and did a mighty fine job if i do say so myself.

this year i took new creative writing classes at school and discovered that i suck at novel writing (even though mr powers is my god), that songwriting is fun and i have a pretty decent singing voice and that i am pretty damn good at playwriting, i guess because i am an actress too.

umm.... my first boyfriend won prom king (which i missed going to because of my play) which is kinda cool because someday i can tell people that my first boyfriend was prom king. even though i didn't date him when he won.

uh...rocky horror picture show is a good movie. so is hedwig and the angry inch. oh and hotel rwanda.

my mom broke up with her boyfriend which sucked but now she's dating someone really nice.

heather and i discovered a lot of really cool new music by going to small shows at chain reaction. so now i am totally in love with never heard of it, the matches, up syndrome, army of freshmen, adam clinton, waking ashland and plain white t's.

I FUCKING MET BILLIE JOE!!!!! i went to the green day concert in november and i stayed after the show to meet him and my friends kept trying to get me to leave and finally i shouted "if God loves me Billie Joe will come out right now!" and as soon as i said it, he came out. so God totally exists and He loves me. probably because i save orphans. heather and i already have tickets to see them again in october and i wish it would come faster.

i took photography this year and actually wasn't so bad at it. i wish i had a scanner because i would put my flippin awesome pictures up here. maybe if i pop by simone's house someday...

on top of graduating in 8 days, i will also be turning 18 in 10 days, and i will so totally be legal. which is weird, because i still feel like a little kid. maybe i can just lie and say i'm 17 for a while longer and that might reduce my chances of getting raped by creepy old men. but hey, i can buy cigarettes and porn and join the army. and god, i have ALWAYS wanted to do those. (extreme sarcasm for those of you who may be dense). actually with parental permission, you can join the military at 17. i only know this because i was very bored waiting to talk to the guidance counselor one day.

oooo! i went to new york city for the first time with my godparents over easter break. it was really fun. i got to see phantom of the opera, avenue q and spamalot. and i met everyone from avenue q and i met tim curry (and practically orgasmed) who is the lead in spamalot and is still just as hot as he was in rocky horror picture show back in that days of frank n furter. i also met david hyde pierce, hank azaria and jeff goldblum. and kaja and i got kissed by gorgeous billy crudup, who was in almost famous and big fish.

i guess that's the exciting stuff. everything else is pretty boring. i got in a big fight with kate which sucked. but we're fine now. and i became much better friends with heather and with anna and courtney.

oh and in august i kissed a girl for the first time. it wasn't real. it was spin the bottle. but it sure got me in a lot of trouble with my best friend's girlfriend (my best friend is a lesbian and her girlfriend was really pissed even though the kiss was totally meaningless and i had kissed eight other girls that night too). although, i am probably pretty confusing because i have four best friends so you never know quite who i'm talking about do you? (aka kaja, kate, nora and heather). in this case i was talking about nora, and kate, being nora's girlfriend, got really mad. so i guess two of my best friend's are lesbians. and kaja is probably bi. i just live a homosexual free for all, basically. but heather and i love boys. we're all about the penis. only not really. but you know what i mean.

i think this is becoming less and less comprehensible because i didn't really sleep not last night but the night before but it ruined me for today too because i need at least 8 hours a night to function normally. otherwise i go all wonky like right now.

so i'm gonna go pretend to sleep. i'll actually be reading harry potter but that is just a minor glitch to the sleeping extravanganza.

you know what's an incredibly weird movie? forbidden zone. it's like being on drugs, minus the drugs, i think. i've never been on drugs so i don't actually know if that's true but it's kinda what i always imagined acid would be like. but, you know, with a plot. sort of. so you can thank oingo boingo for that, can't you?